So, I am a girl with a whole drawer full of dreams, journals full of hopes and a brain whirling with ideas. So why don’t I just get on and pursue them?
The things I want to do are not expensive, there is one that costs a few hundred pounds, but aside from that the others take…. TIME and ENERGY!
I have no problem knowing what ‘the desires of my heart are’, but knowing which one to pursue first. How do you work out what is important? How do you begin? How does an idea or a hope become reality? What if that dream has never been done before, there is no grid. You are the beginning.
How can I wrote a blog all about not getting on and doing what I want to, when all I want to do is get on and do? So why don’t I just get on and pursue them?
Time wasters: good answer, but I am also very good at time management, working from home, being a mum etc… so it’s not time. I could totally make time – less time doing things that don’t matter.
Energy: Now Ben sleeps through – horrraaayyyyyyyyyy! I have so much more energy. People who have children who wake every night for 15 months start living a strange life….. Start thinking a bit differently! I feel like ‘myself’ again and it’s only been a month. Ben is so over his silly wake ups, so much so that he goes to bed around 7 and wakes around 9. yes. NINE o CLOCK in the MORNING….!!!! Who would have thought. At this age, Beth was waking between 4 and 5 (am).
Fear: What if what I do isn’t good enough? What if it fails? What if my best idea doesn’t turn out so well? Then, I should just try again. But if it is fear of failure holding me back then I will never start anything, and will never be very good at anything.
It is totally fear of failure that holds me back. And really. What if one of my ideas fails? I’m made of pretty strong stuff. I don’t dwell in the past. I will move on. Might shed a tear. Might wake in the night and think about it. Might call a few friends to discuss what happened. But really Anna…….. Come on. Afraid of not doing something incase it goes wrong. That doesn’t sound like me. I am so glad I’ve discovered this 
Q: Why are the things you want to do the hardest to do?
A: In case I fail.
I was talking to a friend that weekend we were in Bath, and they explained that they had been reading about pursuing business ideas. A grade students go into business and do well. B grade students take risks. They make their first million, lose a million and make a million more!
I am somewhere in between. Obviously, I am not in business. Do I have business ideas? YES. Could they fail? YES. Could they succeed? YES!
Psalm 37:4 [amplified] Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart
I know this scripture. I say it to others. I pray it for my children. But look. The secret petitions – the drawers, the journals, the thoughts – delight myself in God.
Delight:
a high degree of pleasure or enjoyment; joy; rapture:
something that gives great pleasure (http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/delight)
By delighting in God, by Him being the focus of my life – by me enjoying the life God has given, who He has given and being pleased with everything the desires/hopes/dreams/ideas will be given to me. Amazing. Amazed?!
James 4:2 [amplified] You are jealous and covet [what others have] and your desires go unfulfilled; [so] you become murderers. [To hate is to murder as far as your hearts are concerned.] You burn with envy and anger and are not able to obtain [the gratification, the contentment, and the happiness that you seek], so you fight and war. You do not have, because you do not ask.
Burning with envy and anger, no thanks. But: ‘I do not have because I do not ask’. This verse hand in hand with the verse in Psalms makes me realise there is an alignment of heart and action. I can have a whole bureau full of dreams, a bookcase full of journals but if I do not ask, I won’t be getting anywhere. Fast. So, ‘the gratification, the contentment, and the happiness that you seek’ through God’s fulfillment of dreams in my life is possible by asking.
Whatever stage you are at with your dream—completion, may you have a blessed day, without a trace of fear!
Here’s to trying, and possibly failing but that’s the worst that could happen – so, here’s to success
Love xox
