I could tell you all the beautiful things we’ve been up to for the past six weeks. Of the half written blog posts. I even wrote one on house work (I know. Doesn’t sound like me does it?)
Instead I will just get right on where I left off. Writing about love, life, family, relationships and all that goes between…. Thanks for coming back to read, I love that you decided to click onto my blog. Thank you <3 and sorry to my friends who kept asking where the next blog was, somewhere between waking up at 4am and rocking a baby to sleep…..
On Saturday night I was at an Event where Martin Smith was leading worship. And, amazingly, Ryan was the “Support Act”! It was brilliant, beautiful and dream-come-true all in one evening! I was stood next to one of my most lovely friends and really enjoyed the music, and the presence
As Martin and his band sang one of the lines that spoke to me was:
Oh through the valleys
Through the dark of night
Here you come running
To hold me
Til it’s light
Although I wouldn’t say I’ve been in a “valley” time, I’ve been enjoying life, but as one of my sweet friends said, “but you’re not writing!” I know exactly what she meant, I’ve almost put that on hold until… Well. Thankfully it was yesterday! I’ve been dreaming up plans, thinking of ideas, doing all kinds of things, but not writing!
And whether it was in the literal dark night (awake with baby) or the grey season of life. God came running to hold me, to bring peace and joy until I saw light!
I was telling a story to my parents yesterday about people, about things people say, about my response and how I wanted to run away rather than reach out to them. That would just be easier wouldn’t it? When people say stuff that is either mean, unkind, or just not well thought out, I just want to run away.
But that’s not right. Well, I thought it was. Until my parents told me (yes, they really did…) that that is not how God would want me to treat them. Yikes. God doesn’t want to see me all upset (I thought about responding, but didn’t). They explained that God has given me life to give to others, God has placed life within each of us, and we are part of someone else’s journey. If I choose to walk away, I stop what God could be about to do through me in their life.
So. In that moment, I realised that running away wasn’t going to be the answer. You know, not literally. Because I don’t run But I realised walking away from the words that have been said would not bring them freedom. It sounds like I’m ‘powerful’ but we all are. If we have light within us, we can share it. Or we can keep it to ourselves. I would so much rather share it:
Matthew 5: 11-16 (The Message)
“Not only that—count yourselves blessed every time people put you down or throw you out or speak lies about you to discredit me. What it means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. You can be glad when that happens—give a cheer, even!—for though they don’t like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that you are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble.
Salt and Light
13 “Let me tell you why you are here. You’re here to be salt-seasoning that brings out the God-flavors of this earth. If you lose your saltiness, how will people taste godliness? You’ve lost your usefulness and will end up in the garbage.
14-16 “Here’s another way to put it: You’re here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We’re going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers, you don’t think I’m going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I’m putting you on a light stand. Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand—shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.
And that is exactly what I want to do, to be faithful with the ‘light’ God has placed within me, to be salty and shiny. So ‘I’m going public with this’ I’m committed to the journey God has placed me on, the people He brings into my life, the conversations that arise. For God who knows all things, who created all things knew that conversation before I did. Knew the words that were spoken to me before they were uttered, He also knew how I would respond and how in being afraid, shocked, surprised, God would then allow me to search my heart and in contemplating running would find myself in a place where God came running to me, to hold me and be light!
My prayer is that I walk in light in generosity, being open and allowing others to walk into the light. That God continue to unfold destiny and there will be joy in the journey! Amen
Love, A xox