It’s incredible how much you can do in one week.
I bought: Roller blinds, lamps, nappies, food shopping, weed killer, etc…
I did: Walks to the shops (really, really far away), had a wonderful haircut – my best yet (imo) and had my toe nails done. And snuck a sneaky trip to starbucks (alone).
I feel so ready for this baby. I don’t know what else I could do to be ready now. My sun tan is coming on fabulously I’ve finished the two books I was saving for when I’m feeding baby – so now have downloaded 3 to my ipad/kindle app (wonder how many I’ll get through before he/she arrives).
I am certain of my baby girl name(s), I have my middle name for a boy and several for his first name… boy or girl, girl or boy. I already have the best of each one (you know that though!) and so gender isn’t as important (right now) as personality, love for life, and the way they will slot into my family. One of my new friends asked if a boy/girl was better – she has two girls. I said they are absolutely the best – both are equally the best. Ben playing with my hair as he snuggles on the sofa whilst we watch ‘pippins’ or Beth talking to me as we lie on the bed chatting about our day, our friends, and all that we have been up to. Their outbursts of ‘I love you’ at any moment that I’m not expecting it…
Sometimes the waiting gets to me, the not knowing of ‘when’ the moment will come when baby is born. The logistics of getting my two in the right place to get to hospital. Where Ryan will be – he’s been in Manchester/there’s a big event on right now/and an out of the blue vvv unexpected win for a festival next week means he will be a few hours away.
But I trust.
I am not afraid. I had a few BH contractions on the weekend. And I began to cry. Did I trust? Will I have the strength? Will it be like my other two (fabulous) births? Ryan was playing guitar downstairs and I was packing my hospital bag upstairs. Then I sat down and prayed. I asked the Holy Spirit to be my comforter and told Him I trust. The fear left. It has not returned.
I just found an email I wrote to a friend after the birth of Ben:
Second time even more fast(!) than the first. The labour was 1hr 32 and got to hospital at 4cm so was already having powerful contractions. I spent 1 hour In the pool with the gas and air… I asked Ry to press the buzzer to get the midwife and we delivered 12 mins later!!!
Yeah. That’s pretty fast isn’t it? So why would I fear – no reason – I am trusting for another fabulous birth
Been praying these scriptures for baby and birth too: taken from the website: http://happyhealthyliving.wordpress.com/2008/11/29/scriptures-and-prayers-for-pregnancy-and-birth/Strength for Childbearing
Lily Bateman & Kristin Schuchmann
(all scriptures quoted are from the New International Version of the Bible)
“The midwives answered Pharaoh, ‘Hebrew women (God-fearing women) are not like Egyptian women, they are vigorous and give birth before the midwives arrive.’”
Lord, thank you that I have vigor and strength to deliver this child you have given us!
“The Lord is my strength and my song. He had become my salvation.”
Lord, You are my song in the light and in the dark. I will always sing to you, my Savior and my strength.
2 Samuel 22:33
“It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.”
Lord, You make the way of our baby’s delivery perfect. You cause my body to be strong and work perfectly in order to glorify yourself in the delivery of our child.
“In my distress I called to the Lord, I cried to God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears.”
Lord, I call to you for any help I will ever need, no matter what my situation. I call on You first… and you hear my call.
“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear…”
Lord, You are the only ever-present one. Thank you for being with us during labor and delivery. I will not fear.
“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made…”
Lord, You made me. You created me to carry and deliver children. Thank you for making me in such a wonderful fashion.
“You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.”
Lord, You are my supernatural, perfect peace. I know your peace and will know it during labor and delivery of this child. My focus is on You and your goodness.
“Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall, but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.”
Lord, You will renew my strength during delivery. My strength will not wear out because it is from You and my hope is in You.
“So do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.”
Because You, Lord, are staying with me throughout my labor and delivery, I have no reason to fear.
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you…”
Lord, thank you for not leaving us alone. Thank you for being with our baby as it passes through the waters in my womb.
“I, even I, am He who comforts you.”
Thank you, Holy Spirit, for always being my comfort. You always bring the comfort I need.
“I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”
Lord, I confess I can do this through You. It is You who gives me strength.
“Great peace have they who love your law, and nothing can make them stumble.”
“A heart at peace gives life to the body.”
“…and great will be your children’s peace (shalom).”
Thank you, Lord for your promise of peace. I receive the peace that is mine in you, Jesus. Thank you that my baby’s shalom, peace and total well-being, is secure because of your faithfulness to your servants and to your Word. May your peace rule and reign and give life during my labor and the delivery of this child you have given us.