Yesterday my friend took me out for breakfast. We usually go to Starbucks, but today I just didn’t feel it. (Remember, I’m a feeling person and I have to ‘feel like it’!) Good job we didn’t, as half of Starbucks was destroyed, obviously refitting but Ben would have been into EVERYTHING! So, we found the old faithful Golden Arches We had such inspiring talks, prayers and shared our hopes for our lives. Talked about things that affected us weeks or even months ago and realised that we were not even bothered in the slightest by those any more. Isn’t it amazing how God can change you so much in such a short period of time that as you release forgiveness, or deal with your own actions and heart motives that you are no longer held back by ‘could have, should have, would haves’ about a situation?
This week, we have Heidi Baker and Ryan Wyatt at our Fresh Awakening Conference at Church (www.revivalfires.org.uk). My children are getting so much better at coming to conferences, they love to rock out with their dance moves to worship. Ok Beth has always loved dancing – Ben however is just learning to groove…..! I will have to video him before he forgets this dance move, or moves onto more advanced dancing!!! It’s more like a fast step on the spot with a nodding head. I know, words can’t describe his awesome, self learnt move!!
I am really looking forward to hearing the speakers and to see what ‘fresh awakening’ God has for my heart over this conference. Last conference was Lance Wallnau and I was really encouraged by his speaking and the way he pursues God. I am looking forward to these speakers and hearing their life journey adventure with God!
Have a fab rest of your week, whatever you do, where ever you go, who-ever you have breakfast with!
We had a fun weekend, at the conference. And started relaxing on Sunday afternoon. Soon after we had tidied the kitchen, loaded the dishwasher (no, that wasn’t the relaxing bit!) we discovered water on the floor. A puddle. Oh dear. I was worried that it would flood the house, ruin the lino.
Despite neither going to happen it’s funny how such a tiny (well ok it was a medium sized puddle it took 4 towels to dry it up) bit of water could make me so worried. I guess so many friends have had bad things go wrong with their DIY that I know the horrors that could happen. I was annoyed that I let myself think negatively. And create a flood situation in my mind. This is not a transformed mind if I can allow a splash to upset my peace.
Romans 12:2 Do not be conformed to this world (this age), [fashioned after and adapted to its external, superficial customs], but be transformed (changed) by the [entire] renewal of your mind [by its new ideals and its new attitude], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God, even the thing which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His sight for you].
I was surprised (although I shouldn’t have been) at how quickly I had conformed to fear. That I had lost sight of the perfect will of God. I don’t want my mind to conform to fear as my first response: I want to be governed by the peace of God and the hope I have in Him.
Since then I have started noticing droplets of water. I felt it was something to do with the stirring of the waters at Bethesda – House of Mercy. John 5.
So. it’s midnight. Apparently, there is a big scary monster in the house and for that reason Bethany needs to come in my bed. We prayed. The monster fear was gone. I tucked my princess into bed, and lay there. Couldn’t sleep. Soon enough it was 1am. Ben was crying. Ryan went to him. I went to him. He cried some more. I went back. Ryan went back. Now it’s 2am. Couldn’t sleep.
I start thinking of all the jobs I have to do tomorrow (which is now today)
* Clean * Laundry * Iron * Bake 50 cupcakes (for sale, not for me to gobble up) * Buy things * Check my ebay for what has sold * Feed the rabbit * Find the rabbit * Prepare for the wedding address for my sister’s wedding.
Then I begin think of opportunities I have been given.
Have I taken every opportunity I have been presented with? Would I always say yes and take a chance to succeed. Succeed? I love that is the way we think. First option is success. Not in a proud, boastful way. But in a thank you God for everything you present to me, if I’m given an opportunity it must be to stretch me in a way that I couldn’t otherwise do by just going about my normal every day life. Not that I think every day is normal. No day is ever the same. EVER. This week is conference week. For me that means being home alone from tues-sun. Usually (well. last year) I would have been freaking out. This year, I am different. I can’t exactly work it out. I am more peaceful. I am more settled. I am more confident that I can cope. Ha. And this year I have 2 children!
I started to worry that I wouldn’t cope this morning. I worried that I would get upset with the children. That I would miss Ryan. That my family would be too busy. I prayed. Silently. As I brushed my teeth. ‘Help me find peace, please’. I know. Short and Sweet?! But it was answered. I checked my fb and I had a friend from Canada write me asking to meet for lunch. Ahhh. What a beautiful opportunity! I said yes. And this week will be wonderful, I will succeed, my children will have fun with me. I will love. x